Fake a smile
Continue to hide the pain for a little while Buried deep beneath her skin Is a weathered soul wearing thin In the walls of her soul is a burden left untold In the chamber of her mind memories reside of broken promises and lies In the halls of her mind are questions and whys She fights this pain deep within The betrayal to her soul begins to wear her thin This hurt in her soul must end Her mind and soul needs to mend Broken deep beneath her souls surface She has let lies destroy her purpose Pain has scorched her like a furnace It has scarred her leaving thoughts of feeling worthless She fights to let the light in again Slowly she starts to mend She slowly starts to feel purpose She realizes she is not worthless She is able to breathe again as she rises to the surface Hidden my soul far away
Away from others so i will stay okay Hiding inside myself Trying to protect what i still have within I cannot let others destroy me and i cannot let them win Protecting myself until no one is around I built a wall so high that i myself started to drown. Buried within myself i became blind instead of saving myself i lost my mind. Broken now from hiding inside too long, pushing others away was wrong. Releasing the pain Learning to let others in, it is okay to learn to trust again Beaten and battered
Tattered and torn The day came that she could not take anymore Who she once was has now disappeared She faced her demons, she faced her fears Those who seek for her will not find who she used to be She broke who she was, she set herself free She became a new version, one you dont know Do not seek for who she was, for that has been let go Bruised and battered
It seems like nothing matters Inside I am torn and tattered Beaten down by lives trials I've walked this broken road for miles I have not felt well for a while Will life ever get better ? I am tired of feeling weathered I feel tossed and faded I have become jaded Will this broken road ever find light ? I need your strength to finish this fight Help me God steer me right because I need your help and your might In the still the storm rages
don't let your eyes gaze at it Instead keep your focus on the rock of ages pay no mind to the storm when it hits When lives storm comes crashing in lean on and trust in the one who is true the battle for you he will win and he will calm and comfort you Don't give in to the storm's threats keep your faith standing tall Remember the saving is his and he's not done yet he won't let your foot slip and or let you fall The storm may make it seem that you are on shaky ground But look to him when you feel like all hope is lost for he can be found he will carry and save you no matter what the cost So when the storm continues to roar keep your focus on God the one who won't let you down In the midst of the storm he will help you rise and soar Hold his hand and trust in him because he won't let you drown Is it just a phase
or is it really pain is it real or fake someone please tell me for my own sake Are these thoughts mine They suffocate me time after time Is this just a game Am I to Blame For feeling all this shame These depressing thoughts I cannot tame These depressing thoughts play in my mind No matter what I do they play on rewind They make me feel insane The thoughts make me feel maimed The thoughts they just won't go away All they do is stay These thoughts cannot be mine This realization in my mind chimes Could this be the time that I wake up and realize I am awake and I see the lies These thoughts are all the same These thoughts cause shame They destroy and maim These thoughts are part of the game The veil is ripped off and the truth is revealed The lies are exposed and no longer concealed The light at the end of the tunnel is shining bright No longer will I feel this torment throughout the night You feel depressed and broken down
You walk around with a frown You feel like no one knows you are around You feel like you are lost and cannot be found Deep inside you try to thrive but deep inside you are believing lies lies that say you don't matter the lies have made you torn and tattered Deep inside your soul feels shred all because the lies you have been fed At night you lay in bed You lay in bed and feel as if inside you are dead You don't have to listen to the lies choose to see them for what they are open up your eyes and look beyond the scars Remember that the light shines best through broken jars You may feel broken and alone but remember that is when Gods love to you is shown Open your eyes to the light and win this fight Choose these thoughts and this pain
or choose freedom and forgiveness and end this game I'm tired of this bondage and this blame In my mind these tormenting thoughts stay the same These thoughts and pain continue to rotate through my mind I reach for freedom, but end the fight with being unkind The healing within seems hard to find The freedom and healing is in my grasp but instead i let this pain rewind These walls in my mind continue to collapse and try to take my life i can choose forgiveness and freedom, but i fall deeper into strife I try to run and be free only to find another brick wall of pain trapping me One day I will break down these walls In my mind there will be freedom down the halls One day I will get up stronger when I fall One day I will be free of this all One day I will let you have it all Let you have all the pain I will let you tear down these walls One day I will be free and stand tall Today I will stand and forgive today I will choose to live Today I will let you make me free free from all these walls of misery When life comes crashing down and I don't understand
I reach for you and your hand Even when sickness knocks me down I reach for you cause I know you won't let me drown I reach for you and on you I rely because deep within you give me hope to continue and try you give me peace when life causes sighs you reach down and save me because you won't leave me to die I trust in you when I am too weak to stand I reach out for you and you lift me up with your hand you give me the strength deep within you help me to stand on solid land Your hand is reliable, solid, and strong I reach out to you and you lift me up when everything goes wrong you silence all my fears you take the pain and give me a peaceful song When all goes wrong I can rely on you you reach down and piece me back together like glue with your hand you heal me and make me new you are reliable strong, faithful, and true I can never live up to what you expect me to be
I can never be as good as you want me to be In your eyes I am worthless and you are always right this endless battle will always be your fight In your own eyes you cannot see that you are blind In your mind are nothing but lies and the truth you will not find You hurt others as your game of misery You want them to suffer like you but you are blind to this fact and cannot see Inside the walls of your heart has grown evil and dark You have become so blind now your path is stark You hurt others as if it were a game If your eyes do not open you will always be the same Open up to the evil path you have built around you Open up and change and let the savior make you new Stop the hurt and the blame For the power to change is only in his name Blaming others only makes things worst hurting others only makes the pain in your mind rehearse Stop the evil and allow God to be first Let him change your heart before the evil makes it burst Blaming and hurting others are not worth the pain it holds listen to God's word and do what you are told stop hurting others and forgive If you want happiness and peace this is way to live I fight the same battle time after time
I can't stop these thoughts that go through my mind Outside I appear to be fine but inside I feel like I am dying Inside I fight these battles that torment my soul Inside these battles stay and continue to go untold I feel like there is nothing left for me to uphold Inside I feel I am slipping and cold These Thoughts return and torment time after time If I told you I am fine I would be lying If I told you everything was okay I would be lying Truth is deep within I don't feel like even trying Time and time this battle I fight Time and time again I lose my sight I lose my sight of the path that is right Time and time again I fight to see the light Time and time again in my mind I crawl through this gutter of dirt Time and time again I rehearse my wounds and hurts I don't want to remember these hurts I want to stop but no matter what I do I fail and again my heart drops Deep within I know there has got to be hope for this torment within, there has got to be something to help me cope There has got to be a lifeline , something to help this end There has got to be something to help me win God I know you are there, I know you see me hurt I know you watch as I crawl through this dirt on my face I know you see my hurt and struggles, of it you see every single trace please help me stand and be free through your grace Sitting on the cold floor
sits a broken soul who cannot take anymore She hides in her darkness behind the closed door Buried within is darkness and torment so strong She counts all her faults and wrongs She won't be able to carry on like this for long All this hurt in her mind screams In her mind the torment gleams to her the only way out is death it seems Inside the chamber of her thoughts she has dug herself a plot In her mind these thoughts and pain can no longer be fought She feels this is her life lot In her mind her twisted thoughts dig herself a grave In her mind she can no longer behave She begins to think, "Do I die or live to see another day?" She searches for the bottle of pills spilled on the floor She thinks to herself, "I cannot take this pain anymore" She thinks, "Should I take my life and slam this dark door?" Buried in strife she begins to take her own life Before she can She feels something come over her that drops the pills from her hand This feeling she cannot explain out of thin air she hears a whisper call out her name She thinks to herself, "Am I going insane?" As she sits on the dark floor She feels a peace sweep over her that she has never felt before The pain in her heart begins to melt This feeling is unlike anything she has ever felt The peace overtakes her and changes her life The peace she feels changes her mind and makes her think twice The peace has caused her to not take her life She now has the peace she longed for in her soul She now feels her heart is whole Deep inside you feel stress
He will take your burdens and make them less Your life may be a mess but in the middle of the mess your life he will bless He will not leave you out in the water to guess He will pick you up when life feels like a test So go to him when you feel hard pressed Go to him when life has you depressed For in his arms you will find peace and rest The peace to continue lives quest Buried in doubt
crushed in fear as i begin sinking in a sea that grows unclear the dark is all around deep in my soul what once was is hard to be found buried in darkness and lack of hope no strength left within to help me cope as i draw near the end of my rope faded strength and growing ill as my hope sinks i begin to kneel is this what i have come to, is it real all this hopelessness i begin to feel crying out through all my pain reaching out for help through this rain please help me give me hope to gain please once again make me sane Mangled by stress
in constant pain buried by doubt I'm going insane. Beaten down deep inside I've lost all hope and will to try my mind has grown cold and dark all my will power is frozen and stark My mind is buried in constant fear deep inside my walls grow near Only you can help me as my hope grows to tears Losing my mind not strong enough to try i reach for you cause only on you i can rely Save me from this constant stress save me from this wicked mess calm me and quiet my fear Take the pain and choke it down
fall to the ground with no hope to be found Dying slowly inside you fade will you make it? can you carry on like this another day? Feeling like you have sunken into a pool of regret you toss and turn as your soul begins to fret You reach for hope, but cling to pain hope is in grasp, but so hard to gain You see hope, but it is covered by a haze Your mind is trapped and lost in a maze The hope you reach for seems so hard to find inside is nothing but darkness in your mind The clouds can be cleared from your thoughts this battle can be won and fought Hope is not a figment it is real open up your mind and begin again to feel The light will come in the darknest of night so push on towards hope and don't lose the fight Your soul feels bruised and weathered
you think to yourself i can never get better With each cut you release your pain you feel it gives you peace to gain you feel for a moment it makes things sane you are trapped inside this game For a moment you begin to feel numb truth is you have sunken into a a dark slum Inside your pain begins to make you crawl as you cut the flesh your pain becomes exposed and raw You are in torment from all the thoughts your mind recalls Inside all the pain floods and flashes your pain bleeds out as you give yourself more cutting lashes Inside fantasy and reality clashes in your mind the pain dashes Inside reality flashes the razor, it is only giving you gashes you are awake to all your pain and you are slowly going insane Your bleeding does not release the hurt it only causes more harm and buries you in more dirt stand up and be alert You can recover from how you were wronged There is hope and a light to see you through Let go of this hurt and stay strong |
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